Your voice

Your voice falls gentle on my ears
Lifting me from being alone
Carrying me on the waves of air
That separate us , divide us
I hang on your every word
My heart beating with the rhythms
How can this love be so engulfing
Part of me is missing , given to you in faith
To keep safe until I am there
My fear of losing you whispers softly in my ear
And I shut it out ,
Why me ? How can I be this lucky
How can love hurt so much
Why choose me
What can I give... What do I have
Only me....no more
I fear it's not enough
And then
I know
Love accepts the smallest things
And turns them into magic
And again
Im alright

Sleep

Sleep

Why You won't take me
I can feel,you ...and yet
Your cruelty won't allow me to submit

Without her your fingers hover
Just out of site in the darkness
Without her.. your warmth barely whispers
Where is she , her side is a flat desolate wasteland
You have her in your grasp so why not take me
You were not always this cruel
Must I pay twice
First with emptiness
Second ... With loneliness
Close my eyes
Let me succumb

Sleep

Screen love

You lie twenty cities away
Our love....on a screen
A connection trapped in text and electricity
I cannot remember your voice
I fight to remember your touch
My heart yearns for the counting of hours
Until your pulse beats next to mine
Twenty cities is just too far
I close the case
Your words
gone

Lie

I never became what I thought I would
So many levels unobtainable so unfair
Set for myself by me and others
If I'd played a game I might have got there

If you lie to everyone you can't be true to yourself
But sometimes others don't want you to be you
It's not easy to hear the truth...
It's so much easier to lie

A journey

Never as you think.

I came to you in the night
Did you call my name, ?....I heard you hissing
I could see your breath, your darkness...
All choices removed.. No turning back

Pulling me closer and without warning
I'm inside you
Fighting we writhe...each of us trying to take control
You bite .... We writhe...twist and turn
Your darkness rolling through my very being
I push harder...faster.. Breaths thick and fast
you push back
You give nothing...you take everything
I hang on to you desperately
You give me glimpses of your beauty and snatch them away as quickly
And the night stands still
I feel your breath and you scratch at my eyes, my soul
I give up and you take me, deeper and deeper
there is no end to your darkness, twisting turning ...I feel you wrap around me
Closing the doors behind us there is no going back
I give in as you remove all mercy....you ..with darkness in your heart
You demand control, demand submission
I buckle ... I conform....
And in an instant it's over and I am out of you

I see your curves in the morning light
You are different...no longer the demon
Your beauty engulfs me as I trace you over and over
Touching you... Seeing you....smelling you
Your image explodes around me driving my senses
Part of me wants to be in you forever, storing the images you give me
Savouring the memories you create for me
Randomly....
You still show me your darkness, from the corner of my eye
Reminding me of your bite...what you can become
I feel you surrounding me and I feel one...complete

And then as fast as we're entwined I am out if you...
On my way...leaving you....no looking back
Will we ever meet again?
Will I ever see your luscious beauty or feel your hissing breath...?
Will we ever share the writhing torment again...our one night..?

If never...know one thing
You command and deserve my respect....and this I give you

homai a koutou i toku whatura katoa

Waioeka gorge..... Winter 2014
Driving to Gisborne