Being a 49 year old male in a world of change

So i sat in bed, tablet in hand, in the dark, and i googled. What were the effects of taking to many metroplol, a beta Blocker, would it slow the heart to stopping? would it speed it up until it eventually burst? would you collapse vommiting, screaming panting doubled over in agonised collapse until the darkness took you ? or do you just fade away.

I wanted to know as i have access to a months supply regularly and just wanted to add the ace up my sleeve should it all ever get to much. See im a 49 year old white male in a world that is changing, im the generation that wasn’t my father and certainly is not my son. I am told from all corners that the masculine urges, emotions, core feelings are now wrong. I am into equality for sure but i am the generation of men who are paying the price for the equality like never before.

I have no special group to belong to Or identify with. I'm not lgbtq, not black, not pensioner, not youth. Sorry, not special. I'm the guilty white hated average male, and I did nothing wrong.

I dont earn as much as many of my peers, and they are mostly women. I attend meetings driven by women, if i ever want to make my feelings felt, then I am the generation of Mysogany. What value can I add to this world now, there is nothing i have that is unique, that a computer or a women can’t do better. Yes i totally understand that they have felt this way for centuries, and yes they will likely make us all pay. But where is my value?

In days of old we all had a value, women were valued as mothers wives lovers friends, they were respected, they were put aloft because they were the most important of our society as they carried the next generations to come, Men did one thing supplied. Money, home, protection, no matter what was reuqired. men died in their millions.

But not all of us are bastards, driving a down trodden ideology. Some of us never were, some of us came from strong female stock. Today i read a report that clearly says the future is bleak for the men in our society. AI and robotics will take over the typically male jobs, the ones we are physically designed to do leaving the women to work with their minds to become the leaders, the emotive communicators, the people managers… we become…the non required.

So i sit here and this is my feeling, and guess what im allowed to feel it, no matter what anyone says or believes it is how i feel. I feel worthless, valueless and un-required. I can be replaced with a robot, am not allowed to behave like man in fear of being called something i am not. No one really needs me, want might be somethign different but need? no… so in the end many of us sit not knowing where this journey will end but one day i do know that the metroplolol will not be a single tablet dose. The day that we are finally put out to pasture, the grumpy old men that no one needs anymore. The minsitry of womens affairs can just shut the field gate on the way out….